matrixmann: (Thinking)
When an icon of one's suicidal youth commits suicide himself, then it's indeed an irony that life offers there.
But, thinking about it, what's it with a hero, where does this status end and where does he start to be only a human being again? With own problems, desires, flaws and personal weaknesses?
It's actually so very simple. So simple that one forgets about it when he looks up to someone.
Every hero that is like an icon to those with demons plaguing them inside, most often he fights some demons inside himself. Even when it's long past having your biggest battle with them, the fight goes on because, once developed, these demons never let you go again. Until the end of your life.
And so... it comes that even a hero might surrender them, although everyone of that kind of human logically knows it is nonsense to do so.
But sometimes you don't know how strong they are, how much a plague they are to the protagonist and how long he already kept fighting them - or how long he already kept running away from them.
It's tough to judge this from the outside - from the outside it's always a pretty easy job to do.
Much tougher it always is when judging it from the inside and taking note of one's abilities and capacities to overcome. How much he/she's caught up in the dependencies of his/her own life. And how much or less there's a way out of it what is plaguing someone.
In that point, even a hero is just a human...
And those things may press him to the wall until he's "about to break".
matrixmann: (Black suits comin')
"Which one of your oaths is the one more important to you?"
"Of course that oath to protect civil life from harm!"
"Then why don't you rebel against your superior when he just orders you to harm the people you swore to protect?!"
matrixmann: (Waiting for command)
People miss guts in this time episode. All feel as courageous to want to join the table, join the discussion and contribute their ideas, but when it comes down to standing out, standing by one's own ideas, risking a head for it and speaking up, defending it, then most of them play the cowards and hide behind the bush. Have a birthday party to organize. A tree to plant. A household shopping to do. Hold back. Try to satisfy the zeitgeist's picture of a good public image. And, above all, try to not to be a leader. Try not to be someone who inspires others, but just who staccatoes down its arguments like a record stuck on replay and who could be stolen from a factory which produces these guys from a mass mold.
matrixmann: (Waiting for command)
The hypocrisy of the rockers - bragging to create something of great importance and pretending this to the audience, but in fact it's the same every time they bring out a new album or go on tour. The same phrases, the same talking... Lyrics stay the same, music style stays the same - little variation.
Where is the great revolution you talk about? Seems like more trivial than there really is.
You produce the same kind of junkfood sound for the masses like all other empty hip popstars. You try to sell it as something else, but who listens carefully recognizes that it's always nearly the same like before. Not really much different than the rest of the commercialized circus...
matrixmann: (Default)
The sellout of public housing in the big cities to private investors is like when the financially strong part of the bourgeoisie conquers the living space of what once has been the place to live of the regular people - poor, middle class and workers. The part of the populace what once made up the natural residents of the cities get driven out of town into the outskirts...
What remains is an unnatural population in the cities, which only looks for entertainment, pleasure, some food to eat - like in an amusement park. The city's there for providing, but it's no home to anyone anymore. Rich hipsters have a room here and there to stay for a night... They jetset around the world, living everywhere.
matrixmann: (Default)
A reminder in times where mass media declare recently deceased former chancellor of the Federal Republic of Germany Helmut Kohl "a person loving and always having fought for freedom":

In 1985, by the first government under chancellor Kohl, the change of the general law concerning the freedom of assembly had been applied that imposes a ban on wearing face coverings ("Vermummungsverbot") for most public events and a ban of protective gear such as armor of all kinds on these events.
Ever since then, the only right to assemble you have is to come around in your casual suit and to be recognizable for every policeman on this event at any given time.

(See post: https://matrixmann.dreamwidth.org/35829.html (all links in German))
matrixmann: (Thinking)
Jemand, der dauernd nur auf andere aufpasst, muss nicht sich selbst ansehen.

Someone who only takes care of others all the time, he doesn't need to take a look at himself.
matrixmann: (Waiting for command)
How many times you wanna stay there and repeat the same phrases over and over again?
How many times you wanna stay there and the daily usual sloppy work keeps going on and on?
You expect anyone to believe you? You expect anyone to believe you do something in his interest?
You expect anything at all that no-one sees that you only try to administer the state of things because it's all too much for you? That you're overchallenged?
Politics is not a game of "I wanna be rich and famous". If you look for that, just dicover some dormant talent in you and try your luck in the free economy that you always praise so much!
High politics govern the life of thousands of people. You do your job as they do! Hand in hand work, you can't exist without them and they can't exist without you! Everyone does a job for the other so he doesn't have to worry about it!
This is the pattern of the game - and if you're not willing to follow that, just fuck you off!!
Fuck-up of a mass of human lives, you know how they call that? "Mass-murderer" and "war criminal".
You slowly get aware of what game you signed up for? This is not a children's game, this is not something you don't carry any responsibility for! Just like everyone else who "only" works in a factory!
This is not about you and your ego! This is about a high responsibility that you carry! And if you fuck that up big time even voluntarily, then this needs to get treated like "voluntarily"!
You know what happens to war criminals and mass-murderers, so you have an idea what judgment might happen to you before a court?

Ant-sex

11 May 2017 01:55 am
matrixmann: (Yuber Suikoden I)
Female voice:
Hi!
Saw you standing there.
You got a nice face.
Oh, you're not sipping on your glass?
Well, it's not the best place here.
Just the only one you haven't got to walk miles for to get there.
You wanna come with me and I show you a better spot?

Male voice:
Fuck you bitch,
save your tits,
tell me something I don't know!
I speak three tongues,
work a ton,
Baby, you should get some niveau!

Female voice:
You needn't have to be so rude!
Ts, should've known when seeing your coke instead of a beer
that something's wrong with you, guy!
Better save the drugs next time
and get some manners before you get so aggressive!
Which woman wants to go out with you?

Male voice:
(Who says that I want to go home with a female?)

Fuck you bitch,
save your tits,
try to tell me that I don't know!
You want a bang,
and some drink
Baby, the story's getting fucking old!

2nd male voice:
You turned her down pretty well!
How about the two of us going in a dark corner?
I think I know what you want...

Male voice:
Fuck you, dude,
before I puke!
Tell me something I don't know!
I cut myself,
wanted to kill
Baby, you should get some SM-Studio!

Fuck you, pal,
go to hell,
and please take your fucking tube with you!
You think I suck,
golden luck
Baby, I've had it with the likes of you!

Baby, I've had it with the likes of you!

Baby, I've had it with the likes of you!



Musical genre: Hardstyle (Electronic)

Mistake

21 April 2017 08:39 am
matrixmann: (Yuber Suikoden I)
A thing that West German leftists don't get about real socialist way of economy is: They didn't invent it anew how structures to produce look like, or did an economy like a hippie community. They only took the old structures known from capitalism and erased the circumstance of having a feudal lord as an owner.
No private person alone or a group was the owner of a facility, the manager administered the factory according to a non-material idea that was "acting for the good of all other employees that work here". If he didn't do that and abused his position, he could be replaced by will of the other workers employed at this entity.
Everyone had his firm position, knew what set of tasks he had to do every day.
If you wanted to take a different position than your current one, you just moved up the ladder through the coventional way. Education or changing the branch, for example.
It wasn't like "today I do one thing" and "tomorrow the other", something unsteady - something that no-one can calculate with, much less raising a family.
Or something that requires all part-takers to be a firm believer of a certain thing to let this thing last.
matrixmann: (Wasteland Ranger)
5 days ago - now also soccer players get attacked by they-don't-know-who (pick a group of your preferation of hate)...
Er, slowly things reach the stage where everyone's going nuts, don't you think?
matrixmann: (Waiting for command)
What is there to say?
This is the world you created.
This is the seeds you have sown.
And this is the harvest you get.
Say - are you fucking happy with it?!
Are you happy that any grand nation
can attack another nation,
without being subject to punishment?
Are you happy with crying over people
that you didn't know they existed
until yesterday?
Is this your understanding of
humanism?
Selectable like your joys -
and after a few weeks gone
you have forgotten about everything.
This is your standard.
Scapegoats and heroes
and "Iiiii have nothing to do with that".

Original:
https://matrixmann.dreamwidth.org/129999.html

Baldrian

2 April 2017 01:16 am
matrixmann: (Yuber Suikoden I)
Sagt, hat Tatort jemals in seiner Geschichte irgendein Thema vorgelegt, dass nicht auf der tagespolitischen Agenda stand, aber unbedingt auf den Tisch gebracht werden musste?
War Tatort jemals etwas anderes als das filmische Sprachrohr der Meinung der Regierung, nach Außen hin verkauft als Abendunterhaltung zur besten Sendezeit - genauso steril gehalten von unliebsamem wie man auch versucht, Debatten steril zu halten?
matrixmann: (Waiting for command)
Große Ohren kommen,
wenn man meint, dass du das Falsche denkst,
wenn du die falschen Leute kennst,
wenn du dich in den falschen Kreisen herumtreibst,
und Briefe an die falschen Personen schreibst,
wenn man meint, du hast etwas zu verstecken,
eventuell sogar kräftig Dreck am Stecken,
wenn du die falsche Einstellung hegst,
und du die falschen Gewohnheiten pflegst,
die falschen Bücher liest
und die falschen Filme siehst -

Man sagt dann,
du hast dich der falschen Gruppe angeschlossen,
den falschen Lebenslauf beschlossen,
du bist ein Feind unserer Demokratie,
leidest an Megalomanie,
du musst weg, auf der Stelle!
ab in eine dunkle Zelle,
Wir helfen dir wieder ganz zu sein!
zurück zum schönen Schein,
mit Tabletten und leeren Worten
aus allerhand von Sorten -

Was, du willst nicht?!
Ach, wie kann das sein!
Bist du ein dummes Schwein!
Du willst unsere Liebe nicht,
siehst die Dinge nicht aus unserer Sicht
Raus mit dir, verpiss dich!
Mach doch rüber, da versteht man dich!
Ach nein, das geht ja nicht mehr,
und überhaupt, wollen wir deinen Verstand so sehr,
es gibt nur den einen Weg
und zwar den, auf dem wir alle steh'n!

Große Ohren werden kommen
und sie werden dich mitreißen wie eine Welle...
Tritt auf der Stelle,
oder versteh', was um dich geschieht,
wenn sich eine Welt die Wahrheit zurechtbiegt,
wirst du es kaum erkennen,
nichts bewegt sich durch herumflennen
und nichts bewegt sich, wenn du nur herumschreist,
die einen gehen anderen gern auf den Geist,
die anderen lernen bevor sie tun,
und erfahren, es braucht etwas mehr bevor sie ruhen.
matrixmann: (Thinking)
Some things, even if they are tradition, better be not touched.
matrixmann: (Thinking)
Even though there's International Women's Day on March 8, never forget: As well as there are many kind and good-natured women who fulfill their duties faithfully and are always there in case of need, willing to help, there are also as many of them which make more of a resemblance to Goebbel's wife.

Activist

4 March 2017 09:11 am
matrixmann: (Waiting for command)
"...Human rights need to be preserved...!"
"Human rights - do you really know what this term means? Do you actually have an imagination in mind what it means when these are taken away from you? Do you fucking know what it means to daily awake in a cell, the guards clinging with their tonfas through the bars all over the jail and the first thing they do is beating you up before breakfast? Do you fucking know what it means to get raped three times a day by various people and they spit down on you, piss on you and laugh about you? Can you feel what it means to get played on and it's fun to your torturer to break your bones and see you scream? Do you have any idea how it feels inside to be exposed to the public, to get thrown dirt at and you know either when you don't do as the hosts say or not, the audience is gonna rip you to pieces? Can you feel how terrified you are in all these situations? Or when your Mom, 3 times taller than you, beats you up as a child and locks you in the dark basement as punishment for screaming from pain?
When you stand before a bunch of youngsters that wait to take the popcorn out of their pockets while you cut yourself, shout at them for teasing you everyday anew?"
"... ..."
"Before repeating this term over and over again, get the hell of aware what it actually means! It's not about democracy, freedom all these empurpled phrases! It's not about headscarfs and crosses, gender equality, and you being prefered for a job because you're a woman! It's not about something you can catalog and protect with paper and pencil or claim before a court!
It's about not waking up everyday and the first thing you experience is getting smacked in the face and treated like somebody's tool for pleasure! - when you walk on the street, you get shot for fucking nothing! when you try to be a man, but still get raped and molested because for some still you are a woman for all eternity!
Before you pamper around the next time about your wrong life decisions being "discrimination" or civilian death exists in war, think twice what you get excited about!
You go to university and even your parents pay your ass, some even need to kill to be able to go to school! Some even kill because of school, because it drives them mad!
You think you've seen something?! Fuck it, the only thing you've seen is your golden cage from the inside! And that's the way you act and think!"



Can be seen as a correction or addition to this one: https://matrixmann.dreamwidth.org/84431.html
matrixmann: (Somebody called me?)
I got no friends
and my family hates me too,
I ain't no best
and I basically fake me too,
day by day
I stare at screens because I dearly like it to,
fast food hay,
nothing special that I really like to do

(expression change)
Calls of duty,
fragrant beauty,
I hate my TV,
inet fucks me,
why don't I decide to die?

I got no job
and the center hates me too,
ain't no hot
but I take from you even though,
here we go,
nothing that I'm really useful for,
stranded emo,
I like to act like I am fucking sore

(expression change)
Beer and booze
to suck up my blues,
consume and regret
to make me forget,
why am I still being alive?

Today is the day I throw my life away,
all are dead, my parents in their bed,
I'm taking drugs to make me go numb,
let's film a movie to star me on TV,
you all go to hell...
I got my Uzis loaded

There's a bunch of clubs I can go to,
there's a bunch of clubs I can swear my oath to
Who is it today
that can steal my boredom away?
15 minutes of fame,
now that's what I wanna say!
A drip in life,
what's there more than to die?
(*click* Noise of a beer can opening, drinks a sip of it, then outpours it in a circle around himself)
Now set this on fire,
burn it and feel the spiky wire,
grind it and put it deep,
to hell with it, I don't wanna sleep!
Bring your warnings and I am that guy,
what?! A knife?!
I fucking wanted a last line!

I know I'll land in hell,
but don't you think it doesn't fit me well?
Nothing in life, nothing to strive
Let's make a party with blood and spine!

Today is the day I throw my life away,
all are dead, my parents in their bed,
I'm taking drugs to make me go numb,
let's film a movie to star me on TV,
you all go to hell...
I got my Uzis loaded

(sounds of plinking bottles and glass, gunshots, squeaking tires, car increasing speed)

Chorus repeat (after a while)

(new noises: people screaming, police sirens)

I got my Uzis loaded

(SMG fire)

I got my Uzis loaded



Musical genre: Hardstyle (Eectronic)

Disclaimer: No reference to living persons is being given. This text is not about existing grudges of the author, nor does it lay down a "plan" for future events or wishes for future events.
It is a parody close to cynicism. Megalomania about being a deadbeat, combined with the existence of a spoiled brat that doesn't know how too kill time in his life and therefore ends up getting flamingly mad and doing extreme things.
Hear that before you want to grab the receiver.
matrixmann: (Thinking)
L'amour c'est un sujet compliqué.
Parfois tu dois fabriquer des compromises inhabituels et tu dois vivre avec le fait que tout ne pourrait pas convenir à l'image parfaite d'une relation. Tel que le plan de fonder une famille, la place de résidence, participants possibles complémentaires de la relation, et la profession et les hobbies du compagnon de ta choix.
En les cas durs, c'applique même á du sexe.
matrixmann: (Wasteland Ranger)
What most people that advertise religious tolerance tend to forget: All organized religions that existed and still exist in the world history of human civilization have a political arm, a political division that works towards realizing the political goals of this religion, and making the rules and commandments of this religion secular law that is subject to the judgment of everyone's everyday life before court.

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