Maybe, but I think you have potential as a writer, but you should try to do more like this one. It's tricky though, it's not like writing just pops out easily the way you would like it. Some books about writing that I liked while I was growing up said a writer should go for producing as much writing as possible while not censoring any of it and keeping it all and then going back and looking at it all and saying this sucks and this is better. That's what Natalie Goldberg says in her books about writing and it was useful to me.

You should read the series of five books by Karl Ove Knaussguard too- the My Struggle series. It seems to relate to what you and I do: kind of left wing frustrated working class male stuff. It is like a current movement, maybe it isn't a movement but I don't know what to call it- zeitgeist?- of being sick of globalization and the way multi culturalism currently works but now wanting to go to being conservative like old white people.