That's what also makes it so hard to break out of the cycle which you're only able to keep continuing via drugs (prescribed or unprescribed - such as alcohol, media consumption etc.).
You would dearly like to end this so much, but day after day there's a demand that you keep going on like before instead of realizing different pathways into practice... The typical "I don't have time for this!" - and it never seems like you ever have time for doing it...
So time passes by with business left unfinished, you doing worse and worse, and anytime you realize you're running out of time to finally deal with what's actually on your mind.