About depression

[matrixmann]

Man kann deprimiert sein und deswegen alles negativ wahrnehmen,
man kann aber auch von der Realität deprimiert werden.

One can be depressed and therefore perceive everything in the negative way,
but - one can also be depressed by the events that take place in the reality.

Comments

[mandarinsun.livejournal.com]

Well, if you are severely disabled like that, I guess you can't really do a lot of things others can do.

I do believe that people should be held responsible for their actions and choices. I think I am not a great person, in that I make tons of goals that I don't follow through with and wanted to be a regular teacher but am stuck as a substitute, but I equally feel that I need to be very careful and not turn into a drug addict and potential child abuser.

I'm very sorry if you have all those disabilities that prevent you from doing things by yourself.

It isn't a good analogy though if you are saying that tons of people are just like people that have that level of disability. It really isn't. Most people can do a lot more than they choose to do including me, to my great embarrassment and shame.

[matrixmann]

Responsibility for your own actions and being a bird in a cage are two different things, in my opinion.

Nearly all people do have anything that limits their possibilities, be it caused from the outside (economic, class) or be it something from their own materia they're made of (like sickness, energy levels, breaking points, stress resistence).
Disabilities you can't ignore are just an extreme example to demonstrate how it affects your ability to sustain to that credo of "Everyone forges his own fortune." - but so even are the little disabilities and weaknesses that people have. This is not a world where everyone is born healthy and it's solely his own will that determines how much comes out of his personal resources. That's a lie. A fucking bold-faced lie. And the more you try to keep that up for yourself, believing in the hamster wheel while you already fall victim to the negative effects of your disability / weakness, the more it turns into self-destruction.
So it is to all people you still tell about the fortunes of the hamster wheel and the invalidity of weaknesses on your performance in the hamster wheel. It's fucking destruction.

Responsibility, compared to that, is doing things and be behind them, regardless if they turn out good or bad, and bearing the consequences of your actions.