Madman

[matrixmann]

What makes you a madman?
Does it make you one if you abandoned the hesitation to kill, to slit peoples' and animal throats, to survive, to have food or just to protect someone you hold dear?
Does it make you a madman if you feel no remorse, if you think that was right?
Does it make you a madman if you do that for money or on your own behalf?
Does it make you a madman if you call other humans "sheep"? If you dehumanize them and get your distance to judge them?
Does it make you a madman if you abandon emotions and if you regard everything through the lens of a rational mind?
Does it make you a madman if you decide to make decisions for others - what you think is best for them?
Does it make you a madman if you doubt the adulthood of the community?
Are you insane if you throw all that to their faces what they have suppressed just to buy a superficial hypocritical peace - that ends when all turn their backs on everyone?

Does it make you a madman if you cut the word "scum" into your arm and show it to the world like a trophy?
Does it make you a madman if you commit a crime while being intoxicated by psychosis and seeing stars?
Does it make you a madman if you kill someone while being in delusion and thinking you have seen Christ?
Does it make you a madman if you decide over the life of a few thousands through the wisp of a pen?
Does it make you a madman if you play with guns and feel joy with it?

Does it make you a madman if you jump off a skyscraper?
Does it make you a madman if you got blood on your hands and celebrate to not wash it away?
Does it make you a madman if you beat up the one who tortured you for your life?
Does it make you a madman if you know how to build explosives from simple household utensils?
Does it make you a madman if you consume culture and feel something totally different with it than the most?

Does it really need to be a butcher to be mad?
Does it really only need beastiality?
Does it really only need coldness and aloofness? Blood and guts?
Isn't it also madness if the mood of one can terrorize a whole area?

What qualifies you for the title?

Comments

[mandarinsun.livejournal.com]

First thing that comes to mind is someone who can't control their anger is a madman.

Other than that, I think each person should refrain from violence as much as possible, but I agree that people see me as like a homeless guy type and potentially crazy. So, I see your point.

Still, it is good from our side to know what is considered normal by everyone else so that you don't end up too far from and even if you become a little far from it, you can still point to where normal is from where you currently are or even start walking towards normal so that you start appearing more and more normal to whoever is questioning you and then when they are no longer looking, you can start doing what you wanted to again.

I think it helped tremendously in keeping my job teaching by listening to this Dr. Laura show on the radio three hours a day. She had callers call in over and over and I started to realize that this was the way administrators and parents at schools use to screen whether I am crazy or not. So, when one of them checks on me to see if I'm normal, I use words like my responsibility, I know I was wrong to, but I am working towards, etc... People that are sociopathic can't do that and always just blame everything.

I am pretty sure I am mostly a responsible and moral person on my own, but it did help to learn the language of it. Don't go off on everything when someone is checking to see if you are normal.