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I was alien
20 September 2015 10:17 am...and I'm going to remain alien.
This is not going to be a confession like you can find in a lot of profiles, in essays written by 15-years-olds and that is supposed to be perceptible in the style of clothing of these because either you're busy with doing confessions or you're already busy with being
On closer inspection, you see that some people leave this hormones-overflowing age just very lately. Some don't even make it or they have a very hard road to walk ahead.
Being alien means - to get a rid of a lot of burdens to proof something, or just to not even internalize them.
Often it comes coupled with being not integrated into a peer group. It is a nessecary evil to do so because in all cases courting peers more than ever leads to embarking adoption of someone else's standards.
The first obvious take-over of such role models may be when alcohol turns into something very intersting for pubescents and when everyone within this age, perhaps fueled by a little exaggeration, craves for experiences with it.
Not to be underestimated should be subcultures in this context - because enough people seek refugee in them, deceived by the illusion to be exceptionally free and individual when joining them. But listening to KMFDM or putting on black clothes doesn't automatically make you be a distinct individual.
Even so-called "countercultures" have their rules and standards by whose compliance or disobedience you can cast a light or a shadow upon yourself, or respectively where you can optionally land in a larger or a smaller subdivision by letting yourself get involved with them.
As soon as you drop the compulsion to frantically want to feel belonging to a group, alienness is what starts. But also individuality starts with it.
Normally this behavior decreases as soon as the human body finishes its period of growth.
But through the modern flooding with impulses, this behavior keeps up for long periods, partly even for decades, even though continued in comparably smaller doses.
Some don't even ever forget this behavior - as seen in the form of 50-years-olds or people in the classical retiree age which think they must have the best bower, the best-looking lawn and the most by-the-book idyll in their neighborhood in their allotment garden colony.
Accordingly is the quality of the brain work that people leave behind - ranging from upbringing with a lack of values to superficial culture.
It's like half-teens would take over control of important positions, role models and the heritage of this generation to the next one. - And teens aren't characterized by constancy or remarkable consequence. Just as little as by identification without the use of certain materials as a symbol of marking for another person.
This composition is a translation of a German text written as a part of a blogparade prompt for landlebenblog.org under the motto "Ich war fremd" (in English, context-based: "I was alien / foreign / strange / different / external").
A little inspiration was delivered by a post at the Zeitgeist-Blog (in German).
The original can be found here: https://matrixmann.dreamwidth.org/81074.html
This is not going to be a confession like you can find in a lot of profiles, in essays written by 15-years-olds and that is supposed to be perceptible in the style of clothing of these because either you're busy with doing confessions or you're already busy with being
On closer inspection, you see that some people leave this hormones-overflowing age just very lately. Some don't even make it or they have a very hard road to walk ahead.
Being alien means - to get a rid of a lot of burdens to proof something, or just to not even internalize them.
Often it comes coupled with being not integrated into a peer group. It is a nessecary evil to do so because in all cases courting peers more than ever leads to embarking adoption of someone else's standards.
The first obvious take-over of such role models may be when alcohol turns into something very intersting for pubescents and when everyone within this age, perhaps fueled by a little exaggeration, craves for experiences with it.
Not to be underestimated should be subcultures in this context - because enough people seek refugee in them, deceived by the illusion to be exceptionally free and individual when joining them. But listening to KMFDM or putting on black clothes doesn't automatically make you be a distinct individual.
Even so-called "countercultures" have their rules and standards by whose compliance or disobedience you can cast a light or a shadow upon yourself, or respectively where you can optionally land in a larger or a smaller subdivision by letting yourself get involved with them.
As soon as you drop the compulsion to frantically want to feel belonging to a group, alienness is what starts. But also individuality starts with it.
Normally this behavior decreases as soon as the human body finishes its period of growth.
But through the modern flooding with impulses, this behavior keeps up for long periods, partly even for decades, even though continued in comparably smaller doses.
Some don't even ever forget this behavior - as seen in the form of 50-years-olds or people in the classical retiree age which think they must have the best bower, the best-looking lawn and the most by-the-book idyll in their neighborhood in their allotment garden colony.
Accordingly is the quality of the brain work that people leave behind - ranging from upbringing with a lack of values to superficial culture.
It's like half-teens would take over control of important positions, role models and the heritage of this generation to the next one. - And teens aren't characterized by constancy or remarkable consequence. Just as little as by identification without the use of certain materials as a symbol of marking for another person.
This composition is a translation of a German text written as a part of a blogparade prompt for landlebenblog.org under the motto "Ich war fremd" (in English, context-based: "I was alien / foreign / strange / different / external").
A little inspiration was delivered by a post at the Zeitgeist-Blog (in German).
The original can be found here: https://matrixmann.dreamwidth.org/81074.html
