Madman

[matrixmann]

What makes you a madman?
Does it make you one if you abandoned the hesitation to kill, to slit peoples' and animal throats, to survive, to have food or just to protect someone you hold dear?
Does it make you a madman if you feel no remorse, if you think that was right?
Does it make you a madman if you do that for money or on your own behalf?
Does it make you a madman if you call other humans "sheep"? If you dehumanize them and get your distance to judge them?
Does it make you a madman if you abandon emotions and if you regard everything through the lens of a rational mind?
Does it make you a madman if you decide to make decisions for others - what you think is best for them?
Does it make you a madman if you doubt the adulthood of the community?
Are you insane if you throw all that to their faces what they have suppressed just to buy a superficial hypocritical peace - that ends when all turn their backs on everyone?

Does it make you a madman if you cut the word "scum" into your arm and show it to the world like a trophy?
Does it make you a madman if you commit a crime while being intoxicated by psychosis and seeing stars?
Does it make you a madman if you kill someone while being in delusion and thinking you have seen Christ?
Does it make you a madman if you decide over the life of a few thousands through the wisp of a pen?
Does it make you a madman if you play with guns and feel joy with it?

Does it make you a madman if you jump off a skyscraper?
Does it make you a madman if you got blood on your hands and celebrate to not wash it away?
Does it make you a madman if you beat up the one who tortured you for your life?
Does it make you a madman if you know how to build explosives from simple household utensils?
Does it make you a madman if you consume culture and feel something totally different with it than the most?

Does it really need to be a butcher to be mad?
Does it really only need beastiality?
Does it really only need coldness and aloofness? Blood and guts?
Isn't it also madness if the mood of one can terrorize a whole area?

What qualifies you for the title?

Comments

[matrixmann]

I consider it an option to learn to not think too much with the rigth-side part of the brain.
Only who thinks in emotions has a lot of anger and is in the position of maybe losing control over it.

[mandarinsun.livejournal.com]

was thinking about what you said here. I guarantee most psychoanalysts, Freudian theorists, would interpret that as something that shows that you have an important trauma in your past that you never want to think about.

They'd want you to bring it to the conscious mind an deal with it. It means that you'd go through sort of a small trauma bringing it into your conscious mind and then you'd be free of it bothering you.

So there you go. Thought I'd point it out because if somehow it was correct, I'd have saved you a lot of suffering. It may not be correct, it doesn't seem to apply to me though therapists have been probing me for over a decade.

[matrixmann]

Well, let that psychologists talk. They don't have to live with it if you be emotional and this means killing people, trashing half of the town and somebody suddenly is rich out of the blue.
...Not that I wanted to indicate something about myself, just picking these three things as an example to demonstrate.

[mandarinsun.livejournal.com]

It would benefit you if they were somehow right though and they'd predict that you'd be hostile to their idea. You should at least consider it especially maybe a few weeks from now. They'd say that you consciously reject it strongly because there is a point to it and your psychical structure has been built, up until now, on rejecting evidence like this. So, it would be even more intense in rejecting it now.

It isn't always right,, but it would benefit you if it were. It has been right for many people. Thought I'd bring it up because it could potentially save you a lot of suffering

[matrixmann]

Let this be said: I know way more about psychology than my entries and comments might show. And I have sort of an eye for it.
You may be able to understand this without me saying much: One doesn't choose the path that the goes just for nothing. I know a lot of people do the stray stunt even though, but for me I think this isn't the thing I do anymore. In many ways I've sorted things in my personality.
I don't claim the mindset that I have is especially healthy, it might not even be a thing for everyone. For me it works and I find it's better than what I used to do before.

I can only say psychologists tell a lot, but that needn't always be the way for everyone to go to deal with himself. It might work for 99%, but 1% might not be able to discover what to do with the way they open up for you. That's where psychology even needs to stay dynamic - that's also the point why psychology as a science about human behavior and mental health also still keeps evolving and changing. You didn't develop forward if you have found the Holy Grail already, right?