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matrixmannWhen an icon of one's suicidal youth commits suicide himself, then it's indeed an irony that life offers there.
But, thinking about it, what's it with a hero, where does this status end and where does he start to be only a human being again? With own problems, desires, flaws and personal weaknesses?
It's actually so very simple. So simple that one forgets about it when he looks up to someone.
Every hero that is like an icon to those with demons plaguing them inside, most often he fights some demons inside himself. Even when it's long past having your biggest battle with them, the fight goes on because, once developed, these demons never let you go again. Until the end of your life.
And so... it comes that even a hero might surrender them, although everyone of that kind of human logically knows it is nonsense to do so.
But sometimes you don't know how strong they are, how much a plague they are to the protagonist and how long he already kept fighting them - or how long he already kept running away from them.
It's tough to judge this from the outside - from the outside it's always a pretty easy job to do.
Much tougher it always is when judging it from the inside and taking note of one's abilities and capacities to overcome. How much he/she's caught up in the dependencies of his/her own life. And how much or less there's a way out of it what is plaguing someone.
In that point, even a hero is just a human...
And those things may press him to the wall until he's "about to break".
But, thinking about it, what's it with a hero, where does this status end and where does he start to be only a human being again? With own problems, desires, flaws and personal weaknesses?
It's actually so very simple. So simple that one forgets about it when he looks up to someone.
Every hero that is like an icon to those with demons plaguing them inside, most often he fights some demons inside himself. Even when it's long past having your biggest battle with them, the fight goes on because, once developed, these demons never let you go again. Until the end of your life.
And so... it comes that even a hero might surrender them, although everyone of that kind of human logically knows it is nonsense to do so.
But sometimes you don't know how strong they are, how much a plague they are to the protagonist and how long he already kept fighting them - or how long he already kept running away from them.
It's tough to judge this from the outside - from the outside it's always a pretty easy job to do.
Much tougher it always is when judging it from the inside and taking note of one's abilities and capacities to overcome. How much he/she's caught up in the dependencies of his/her own life. And how much or less there's a way out of it what is plaguing someone.
In that point, even a hero is just a human...
And those things may press him to the wall until he's "about to break".
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Date: 22 July 2017 02:21 pm (UTC)(no subject)
Date: 22 July 2017 03:10 pm (UTC)Say, that's a thing why I refrain myself from becoming a hero and hide somewhere in the depts of the internet with my stuff.
If you're a hero to some, you can't just do errors like all the other people. Everything gets noticed and commented on.
By the way, the more popular you get, the more you've got to do with idiots, with people trolling you, offending you, mocking you, filing copyright or legal claims against you and telling you all over the day "Fuck yourself and go to hell!".
Dealing with all this in a grown up way, oh, gosh... That's hell of a work and you feel like you can't do anything anymore.
But, that's not exactly what I meant here. And that is also giving me a reason for restraining from becoming a hero for others.
If you are a hero, not only do people expect of you to be perfect and flawless to look up to you. They... also are a pressure on your shoulders to always keep going forward, even if you can't.
For some people this may be a gain as that way they always come knocked back onto the earth again and this may also keep one or the other from letting himself go too much. You know, "this is not only my thing, it's also the thing of others and I must be responsible", that kind of thing.
But for enough of those who stand in that position, it's like - they've been used to run away from something for 30+ years already, so this is another reason to push and run away from oneself.
Other people expect you to go on, like nothing's bothering you, but inside you notice everything else's anything but okay. Actually, you couldn't hold that image.
And that's a point then when ever a hero is only a human again and no god-like figure. God-like figures live in the imagination of people and they have no physical vessel, they can be modified for any purpose; heroes are physical figures made of flesh and blood and an own personal life, those can't be modified at any purpose. Or, better say: Their image can be modified, but not imediately the person to fulfill this role.
And that's the point.