About privilege (The one who claims to see no flesh but only sees flesh)

[matrixmann]

"You tell me it's racism / sexism if I talk bad about a person whose skin is darker than mine / who has different fuck habits than me?
Who's talking here all the fucking time "He needs to be preferred because he's from a marginalized social group"?
You know what? If somebody really belongs to a couple of these groups that you call "minorities", you won't even recognize him 'cause you're so caught up in your world of cliches what all of them need to be like! You ever asked one of them what they really want? No, you just think you've found the philosophers' stone and therefore you know all of their pains, all of their needs and all of their wants! And you think they're all one homogeneous mass, like there's no variation between them!
Where's the fucking shit of "everyone forges his own fortune" that you grew up with? Where does all the money come from that you spend every day? You really think that destiny is that tightly set?
Then why don't you give up all your lifestyle and donate it to one of the people you say that they need it much more than you?! If you think you're so privileged, you gonna acquire it back in no time and your life won't be like shit 'cause you're a white cis-gender whore that passes so well in this society..."

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[maadmike.livejournal.com]

I am against racism but I am against hypocrisy hospitality welcoming unknown migrants, I remember very well how it was at nineties when our authorities were weak - the people from South were making gungs that all the Moscow police was afraid of them, they were doing everything they liked fucked and killed our girls and so on. Now the situation is much better only because our constant hard police and migration control work. So, every time I hear people are saying bullshit about hospitality I am telling give ten more immigrants to live in your home instead of your relatives after tell this kind good for nothing.

[matrixmann]

I have my troubles with this American definition of "privilege" for social groups too.
Just, how much privilege does it give to you if you live as a white person in an all-white society? Nothing. Sure, you would be worse off if you were not white.
But that doesn't change anything about the circumstance that still hierarchies are active for me as a white person in an all-white society. Do all people of this all-white society possess the same wealth and degree of education? No. There's still rich and poor in this society and white-skin birth changes nothing about that.
Being white-skinned doesn't change anything about that in this society that you can still be lowest end of the hierarchie for some reasons.
And then, if you are in this position, are you still so privileged? Are you then so much better off than a black person in general?
You've got one aspect of getting into trouble less in your life, but that's about it...
In an all-white society still nobody wants to employ a criminal, even if that criminal is white-skinned. In an all-white society people still look confused at a homosexual or can become hostile against an openly-showing communist (both left and right tend to do this) - or against somebody with marks of self-harm on his arm. Or they can be hostile against homeless, against unemployed people. Are they so fucking privileged because of their being white? Is that what it's supposed to be like?
I don't think so...
And, you know, the talking about "privilege" pretty often comes from people who went to university, paid by their parents, which grew up in a middle class home and barely ever made real connection with the abysses and unfairness that life can contain.
People which keep talking about "being blessed by birth into a certain group" like a practicing Puritan, but also grew up and believe, at the same time, into this American "everyone forges his own fortune"-stuff.
The most natural thing, if they really took their "privilege by birth" so serious, they don't even get upon: If you're so privileged that you'll pass well in society, then give your material wealth at least to people who don't even have this.
According to that logic, a privileged person should have no trouble without all that material stuff behind him. It's his flesh which makes him master everything!
...Strangely, this is done by none of these babblers. Somebody already guessing what is more a source of one's social standing and that's why they don't do it? I don't know.
At least, if you give up your wealth even as a white person, then you won't be part of the privileged world anymore, you'll learn that from the daily practice. I mean, who gives benefits or gifts to white people which have no money in their pockets?
If that logic of born privilege was true, then this shouldn't happen. Born privilege is privilege you're born with. Nobody should be able to take that away from you because you're incarnate with it. So, everything you touch or go about to do should turn out successful and your wealth was back in the house in no time.
Yeah, but in practice this doesn't happen.
So then what's it with it with this empty talking about incarnate privilege? Privilege from flesh?
Sounds like Puritan to me and then overly racist/sexist itself.
'Cause when you turn to be a skin color or a sex before your own deeds are counted, then this is the very image of racism/sexism - only disguised behind a curtain of pretending to do good things.

[maadmike.livejournal.com]

I don't know what to say... the white privileges... yes, I'd heard this from Americans which are not white but I'd never heard this from white Americans which now are starting to fight for their rights to be treated as equal with other color people. I'd heard from some my former LJ friends that they are ashamed about some things done by white police in USA (like shootings by police the blacks on the streets like homeless dogs for ex.) and their grands were using slaves... you know I'm so far from this here in Russia after the Soviet Union heritage where everybody were equal and even now I am and people around me have no problem with immigrants, nations, each other we are looking on what man is at first place and after it could matter what is his nation, citizenship and so on. You could be here a rich Russian man but everybody will be treating you like a dirt if you will act accordingly and here people are thinking about what to do cause it is difficult to get a good name and easy to lost it. Though I had an acquaintance from East Europe Croatia it seems, so he is telling that they are living there even more as a family than people in Russia.

[matrixmann]

I don't get this mindset behind that either...
For me it's about the same as you describe. - Deeds count, then who you are. 'Cause deeds are the shit you can build a base upon in the present, not relationships, flesh, heritage or whatever the heck which you can't choose when you get born.

If you happen to know about Puritanism and how much it played a role in the early colonization of North America, it seems much like a continuation of that mindset in the post-war American streams of thought among the intellectuals.
The same dogmatic sticking with it, the same "evil breaks down upon us, if we don't behave like this/that!"-shit, the same "there is no way out of your class because of what you got born with" talking... In Puritan Christian religion, you also can't do anything to be one of God's chosen ones for paradise, you just are or you're not. No matter your efforts, no matter your moral behavior.
Only thing that counts is if it turns out successful - but then again, it doesn't matter what you get successful with, if it does mankind good or bad.

Same shit you have in this privilege thinking.
But without really questioning the circle that is present in reality, which creates this "not getting out of the lower class"-scenario.
Instead of thinking about something like "wealth accumulation" and "a system consisting of lesser and lesser realistic chances to get up the social ladder", they keep sticking with their "destiny must have set this before a person gets born" and replace "being chosen by God" with "privilege through being born with x/y/z".
And so it comes that some people, again, are chosen (privileged) for a good life and most of the others simply aren't because they've been born with the wrong features for that (which they can't get rid of, of course)...
All are reduced to a state of totally helpless children, and the hierarchy of "the upper class gets comfy in their seats and doesn't let anyone else than their own kind into their circles" stays the same.

Worst thing about this mindset is: In the recent years, the attempts to get this bullshit settled down into human heads has WAY increased its efforts here too. To get this mindset stuck into areas which it is unnatural for and which don't have that same circumstances in the countries like in the US which lead to them.

[maadmike.livejournal.com]

"And so it comes that some people, again, are chosen (privileged) for a good life and most of the others simply aren't because they've been born with the wrong features for that (which they can't get rid of, of course)..."

You know we have something like this. Actually, it is like if you meet some new person and you don’t know, let’s say her, you start speaking and scanning her with 10-more questions which are giving you a total understanding – what family high-middle-low is she, smart or stupid, active or passive and so on and after you have got an impression you start speaking accordingly respectful with lady, if she is stupid, poor, drug alcohol addict you are speaking as with incredible respect as with tremendous cautiousness. It doesn’t mean that we have or have not the privileges cause as rich educated people have their privileges as courses as drunkard have their own.
I don’t know Christianity about this problematic much but Buddhism has one thought that when Buddha was teaching he was saying you are very old to start my program or what could be maybe said you are so stupid that you have a privilege to think that you are a God…

[matrixmann]

You see, I even don't deny that things that this mindset addresses aren't factually there.
But, the way to interpret it, the kind of... pulling strings together and see the pattern behind them, what links all of them together, THAT seems like totally wrong to me. Drawing the wrong conclusions, you know?
It seems so incredibly biased with something and, on the other hand, like a totally manipulated way to put all these things into a context. Overall: Very much complacent. Circling around oneself and one's ego totally...

Understanding sociology, you know that's not the way the correlations are tied together. Links don't ask for either male or female, black or white, they're just about individuals, about single entities taking one turnout or another or another. The judgment about them at all is neutral, from the viewpoint of this network.
This is a thing these people already aren't - for whatever reason.

For example, sociology, as well as psychology too, already know that individual resources are the main deciding factor over one's fortune in the future. You can also subcategorize this into outer and inner resources.
Outer are circumstances which come from the outside, which you have no or limited influence on, inner circumstances are what your own efforts make out of that what you're given with.
You know, it's very much a difference if you grew up in a loving home or an abusive one, if you received proper nutrition throughout the build-up time, if you had the access to resources providing education (school, but also books at home), if you had access to resources at all which fostered your psychical and cognitive development, if you grew up in a war zone or in safety, if you grew up with 2 people acting in mother and father roles or only one of them, if you grew up in good relationship to your body or not, even if you grew up with siblings or not and the relationship to them and so and so on.
So, where do these individual resources contain "race"? Where does that play a role here? Race itself isn't the deciding factor, it's more how your surroundings treat that, give it positive or negative judgment and how much that is responsible for troubles your surroundings have during influencing you in childhood. Race itself doesn't matter that much if you grow up in surroundings that are wealthy, for example. Wealthy suburbs don't function like precarious ghettos or single-moms with 6 children and each of their fathers having run away, for example...
"Gender" is a thing that appears in this if the same like for race applies to it. If people in your surroundings judge negatively over it (like "oh, no, it's a girl/boy! I wanted a son/daughter!").
Or, the other thing, if you were always caught up in the mindset that the physics you have are wrong and how people treat you, deducing from that, is wrong. You want the social treatment of the other side.
Still then, beside this conflict, it doesn't limit you fully in your mental development, to acquire skills and such things. Or even to become successful and rich!
There are many people with that problem, but who become someone before they take it on.
So, where are these single components fucking up a life?
Also - once your physical appearance had been adapted, some troubles with your environment also should disappear.
Except if you make it a topic yourself again and again or try to live as some non-categorizable artistic figure...

So, where is all this fucking pre-set? Where does all of this originate from a single component called "flesh"? Where are humans ONLY the flesh they were born with - and where do they have no space to move on their own?
It's total nonsense... Some reactionary bullshit in order to justify one's own bad decisions and avoid assuming responsibility for them...

[maadmike.livejournal.com]

I agree with what you are saying, the nation doesn't matter much in a way of self-growth, getting rich, getting genius in some thin directed spheres and yes, the individuality does, which consists from million factors as media you were grown up, character and so on though I think you will not refuse the fact that nations have obvious differences. For example, Chinese and Japanese are workaholics and even taken out of their media or society to other countries they don't loose similar features, instead they are collecting together to double their native media. Africans are certainly not workaholics but they are talented in music. While I was communicating with students from Cameroon I was surprised to know that they have new style of dance every half of year and you have to study a new one it is a rule, even a guy forty years old was dancing. People living on the North are not that workaholics but talented in advising something new cause historically we were forced to change in that way - our media has been forcing us do it cause it is cold for half of year and rainy, if you will not make necessary things you'll simply die and people are dying every day giving their small part into our collective evolution. For example I see the differences of Russians living on our South as well, they differ profusely from Northern guys.
I do believe that there are some laws of huge mass movements, there are the collective thinking and every nation has its program of developing.
It is very funny to see the Africans grown up in Russia, they are Russians and don't have much problem after saying couple of words though there is a feeling that they are like fishes seekinh for their natural see and when they are coming to their genetic motherland they are not finding it...
It is also interesting to see the real time expirement with mixing different nation and culture like it is going on in Australia, to see how new people adapting to this mixed media.

[matrixmann]

All that I don't deny too.

Just as you're saying it: Put an African since his birth into an environment like the European one with a half-way working social state that ensures a decent development - and there you go. Handicapped by his birth race? No, they can end up somewhere in the normal middle class too, never needing to think how much their race prevents them from acquiring certain positions in the hierarchy of society or job life. You can also see totally the opposite of that happening.
So, "everything's predestined" goes to the garbage bag... It's not true. All other is just a different repetition of what the usual racists always preached.

If someone really wanted to make a better getting closer to the topic "why don't people acquire the same if they don't suit the social standard expectation of people", then he should better take a look at things that make out these individual resources.
Personal characteristics as well as the resources he was given since birth to form anything good out of them.
Poverty and precarious family circumstances are much more a deciding factor in this - if someone becomes a professor or if he just becomes the usual drug dealing thug on the street or simply a good-for-nothing.

And even if America thinks so that gender and race matter so much, also this area here which picks this shit up, then that society should better get down to ask questions about its own antiquated hierarchy and order... ('Cause, if it still matters, then you know it completely missed the train to modern life. But really ON THE WHOLE.)

[maadmike.livejournal.com]

When I was thinking about the nature of racism two decades ago, I'd came to conclusion that it based on a fear that your nation is disappearing. Yes, you can put an African or Indian into normal family having an opportunity to spend enough money on education and maybe in average we will have a normal European, but there is an view of thinking that it is not normal people were moving America forward at last centuries but quite active and incredibly talented Germans blood. Though, to get a little bit to the side of topic, I want to add that a dictatorship of law is necessary for moving forward such country as Haiti, Somali and others which Tramp had called an ass hole it seems. It is necessary to change at least two generations if engineers, teachers, preacher and others to make a stable society willing to go forward together but at the moment most talented people are fleeing wherever it is possible from mentioned hole unwillingly forming overwhelming majority of inactive, dull people.
What is going in America it is quite interesting. White guys were for centuries using blacks breeding them for more profit, while killing yellow native nations without possibility to force them to work. Do whites have problem with Indians? No, last bits of them are calmly drinking their way out if this planet. Whites have problems with blacks, which want to have everything but doesn't like an idea to work as their ancestors for centures and doesn't want or can't get an education at USA, I don't know why to become engineers, scientists and so on to work their ass off as whites are doing. The society of America is so devided on different ethnic groups that it demands a lot of work and energy to bring people together and what we see - the growth of hate and anger instead, of course the degree of problematic and racism rhetoric will only grow at USA. I wish Americans only good but if things will go in this way far they could easily drop down into revolution of some kind...

[matrixmann]

"Though, to get a little bit to the side of topic, I want to add that a dictatorship of law is necessary for moving forward such country as Haiti, Somali and others which Tramp had called an ass hole it seems.

You know what? That's stuff I know from communism. Really!
To get places like Africa forward, or whatever else area on earth which suffers from meaninglessness, crime and drugs, you've gotta install a tight reign of law which brings order into this place, giving people firm rules which they can orientate by, ensuring their daily lives at the same time, which fights all the evils the place gets sick from and, by that, lays down the base for building up anything new - in mind as well as materially.
With that also a broad initiative for the general education of people must come, with a firm restriction to not letting escape or draw back to religious hocus pocus happening, which always was an enemy of education and kept people in the Middle Ages they were living in. So to say: "No excuse, you all gonna partake in it!".
With that erected, you can start to build up something in the mindset of the people as well as get something like a modern economy going.
Because - people then are forced to work together instead of fighting over trivialities, each one is equal to the guy standing beside him, all receive the base keys to learn to decide for themselves, be responsible and take over responsibility (by the experience of "my hands shape the world and no God I'm waiting for a hundred years to appear"), and you have protection against the outside and the inside enemies to make sure people can make this development. You know, when you experience steadily "crime doesn't pay, only gets you into trouble", then people don't do it. If you experience daily that it gets you more advantages than good behavior, then no question why people pursue it.
When the order changes to "good behavior gets you the reward", then most people automatically stop doing it and they're ready to do the honest way - which is what you need if you wanna get an area to become something and achieve something for itself.

You can even copy that scheme onto every other area of the world, I think.

America doesn't have anything like this, no even half-way existing plan where to move to (and those that exist are driven by commercial lobbies which want one thing today and tomorrow another, and in the end it's all about their own profit, not the country or the people), also America always avoids taking a stand to state what behavior they want from their citizens and what is totally undesired. They just stick with such single-aspect things like "blind obedience", their national anthem and the flag, religion and that shit, instead of, for example, making clear "a good American is a person who doesn't trade drugs and robs other people, who doesn't deliberately disturbs the public order and becomes violent against people he doesn't like or understands". Really something simple like that which everyone is able to suit, regardless of his background.
They stick with declaring it as "freedom" that you can pump your ego in other peoples' faces, behave like an asshole, terrorize and rob other people - and then keep wondering why everybody in society goes nuts and America doesn't get anywhere. Why no-one tries to do an honest job, instead subscribes to his share of practicing kleptocracy.
If they got out of stirring in their own juice and not mix freedom up with "tolerating bandit behavior" or equaling practicing bandit behavior themselves with "being a good American" (e. g. the radical religious idiots which attack other people that don't support their views, but who think "being a pacticing Christian IS American"), then this ship could get out of its black hole it's stuck in.

[maadmike.livejournal.com]

Yes, absolutely agree with you, America is ruled by corporations, different sects, different national groups. USA being now what I absolutely don't want to see in my country, when corporations are spitting on simple obvious facts that drugs, living in credit, free weapon on the streets are harm for society. They legalize drugs and all other shit to make more money and when people are getting angree they are speaking up racism nonsense that African-Americans, Mexicans, even Russians are to blame... But it is their game and all we could do is just sit firmly in our armchairs and wait for a dollar colapse. There are millions of honest, kind people in America and I anyway hope that they will find a way to solve all their problems instead of everyday telling populism shit and thinking to a wall around while making everywhere revolutions, wars to help their economy.

[matrixmann]

Hm, I'd see the pathway of this from a different view.
Why do they start the process to legalize certain drugs?
It's capitulation before the structures that produce and distribute this shit - and some way also it's admitting the modern medicine that you can buy in the US (or not buy, if you lack the money, of course) doesn't have all the answers to all diseases that exist. Sometimes even the illegal drugs are cheaper than normal meds and they help, compared to the shit the doctor prescribes you.
Coming back to the original message - why do they have to give up fighting? Because the shit was floating around the streets for decades already, police couldn't get a grip on it (also because the public security sector was cut down and downer), and on the other hand, the various CIA operations in all kinds of countries in favor of their dirty drug business.
If you keep fostering the shit in foreign countries, either to make money and also to drive back communism, because it's "lovely" rebels are a good aid to kill them damn red bastards, then it's no miracle that the drug shit doesn't find no end, but rather flourishes.
And no-one should seriously think that this shit is going to steer clear of their own place...

The guns are the same. Even abandoning the right to bear arms won't reduce the number of guns in the US seriously. Why? 'Cause the illegal sector round the corner also has weapons to sell and it doesn't ask for a background check.
Even places like Chicago which introduced a radical gun ban on their territory some time back couldn't get rid of it 'cause the gangsters ask no-one for permission to bear their firearms - and the normal citizens fear for their lives, because police doesn't get a firm grip on the criminals, so they get illegal guns to in order to help themselves in case of need.
So, what have you won then?
The only ones you dry up in that aspect is the normal citizens which would take the honest way of life.
The criminals still get their hands on guns because there are so many around and floating freely on the black market because so many people earn a good penny with them.
Dry up the criminal structures and strengthen the enforcement of law, this should make a better job.
But this could easily lead to civil war, as then you'll have to deal with 5th column elements inside your own state structures which get rich of this illegal business...

[maadmike.livejournal.com]

Of course, everyone could has his own opinion and it is not right to simplify any question, though I strictly believe that it is not so difficult to clean any country from drugs, criminals and other disasters. Look on Philippines, China and other examples. What is the roots of drug's sell - money, people want to make money and letting them earn money fighting with anything you'll step by step will move society into wishing direction. While in USA people are dying with thousands per month from opioids they are buying in pharmacies, its is incredible! Nothing will convince me that it is a fight with illegal drugs had lost has caused such situation. It is clear that the people in authorities are making money on people's lives. You could easily stop using drugs starting the program of testing people with necessary laws made though again here has to be some society unity on a question - what people like to live without drugs in their lives or to see street full with brain damaged homeless guys, with their neighbors are dying here and there everyday. Yes, the process will take time but it is necessary to move in right direction I believe.
We had tremendous problems at nineties while our corrupted authorities were copying the USA, but after Putin had come to power situation was changing and now it differs profuselly.

[matrixmann]

I do have my problem with that drug issue in that point what do people do who use it for medical purposes, who can make use of the new liberation laws?
They're nothing like the criminals and the usual broken addicts - and sure, they would take something else instead of pot to soothe their sickness symptoms. If meds were affordable (unconditional health care and health insurance needed!) and if there were meds on the market at all (hint at: put the research and the production of meds under the purpose of public well-being instead of commerce!) who helped them so that they didn't need the drugs for that sake.

I refuse to ignore this point as there are definitely people out there with medical conditions which usual illegal drugs factually help. And that for I have my problem with putting the drugs only under the attributes "bad" and "must disappear!".

Just for the record: ADHD meds are also only somehting similar to coke because it has an exceptional effect to people with that neurological condition. Instead of getting hyped up like normal people, they become quieter and suddenly can concentrate, a condition which they normally have big troubles with to reach.
Differing medical conditions see a positive effect from marijuana, even ketamine once I saw they did a study about and (oh miracle!) found out, it's a functioning means against depressions.
Opiates, even as you find yourself, are a legitimate means for heavy pains, and when they need them, they even use them too as meds.

So... just saying, I can't just all damn this stuff.
The problem is when this stuff floats around freely in each kind of quality and masses - for lots of people who don't need it!

[maadmike.livejournal.com]

"I do have my problem with that drug issue"

I do not have, with life realities maybe a little but drugs... The percent of people needed heavy drugs with their health conditions is less than one though the main amount of users is youngsters, people with mental issues and drugs wouldn't be drugs if they are not forcing people to use more and more and causing more mental, physical problems to the death as a redemption out of now useless, terrifying life. It is quite funny for me as the flagship of capitalism USA is going hand in hand with all the possible sins and drugs is a wonderful opportunity to make money - people are just garbage behind your high fence...

[matrixmann]

I don't know how high the percentage of people is who profit from drugs as meds, but still I see the benefits they get from it that normal meds don't seem to get them.
That's why I have my problem calling all this liberation tactics "making money".
Fuck, capitalists make money from everything they can... Of course they will!
But I can't ignore if the audience of that tactics all don't suffer the worst.
That's why I said "it's a hint at medication research needing to be more orientated towards the needs of the people". It also hints at the fact that the system currently supply all people with what they need - regardless now in that context that they possibly can't afford it...
So, you can't just go and outlaw all the drugs again and tell yourself everything's fine from that. You'll still have your clientele which pursues them because they have a reason to get them. And they're not the bad-asshole-junkie-type of people. They're the type of "if anything else would give me relief, I'd take it instead!".
Who knows what's gonna happen to oneself one day? Do I know today if I'll experience once stuff that actually is dope is gonna ease some physical symptomes that I find unacceptable to live with?
Tell you what, I'd fucking tear that state and justice apparatus apart that would tell me straight forward they denied me access to it and punished me if I reached that by myself!

So - you have to couple that single action with some other actions at the same time.
Go fucking get rid of the drugs on the street, kick your industry in the ass that people get meds and don't have to use dope because that helps better, and fucking make medical supply a self-evidence instead of some "earn 120.000 $/€ a year so that you can buy your shit by yourself, slacker!". Like - everyone who's plagued by chronic diseases or failed treatments or 30 years of working one's ass off is bloody responsible for what he's plagued by... Like he could have chosen "oh, no! I hide from the disease so it can't find me! I don't go out and work hard for 30 years, I'll stay on my sofa and that feeds me and pays the rent!". Fuck that shit, the least who are plagued by something critical have done anything with the full intention that it'll result needing to take meds for the rest of their lives.

[maadmike.livejournal.com]

"oh, no! I hide from the disease so it can't find me! I don't go out and work hard for 30 years, I'll stay on my sofa and that feeds me and pays the rent!".

It is interesting how it sounds though I can say that many people are short living cause they think they are invincible at young age and do smoking, drinking, working in chemical industries with little more payment. My sixty years neighbor is just the same, he was working with accumulators and was drinking and smoking as well and now his legs are nearly not working at all, the pension is laughable and life is bright and shine...

[matrixmann]

Working several additional hours all the time and overburdening one's back in younger years because of enthusiasm to prove oneself to society and the elders can make that happen too - just as bad food all the time...
And it can also happen to you that you don't know what you have done wrong and still you got some condition that doesn't go away anymore.

[maadmike.livejournal.com]

Yeah, life on Earth... Too much enthusiastic, excitement overwhelming, blood is bubbling in the veins to know what chemicals a new working day will bring! )) I remember working for pennies on our local rich pharmaceutical company making insulin - it was sometime funny but never financial adequate. Now there are youngsters are leaving their health with twice much salary and twice cheaper Ruble... veeery exciting!

[matrixmann]

Here I know this from people in my age or specifically which my former life went to school with.
All is fine in life... Traveling here... Working there... Then everything turned upside down after half a year or a few months... And ALL of that is so fucking fine!
I don't know what's so fine about this if you can never calculate for more than a year. I don't think this is exciting, even my former life already felt so as it still went to school.
Yes, you can discover the world in your younger years because you have the fewest in duties tied to your neck - but, is all that really there just to wait especially for YOU to come over?
And - is all that really worth your effort?
The truth is: Every entity in this world wants to make a profit of you. Of your time, your physical power, your belief - everything.
Is believing and relying on that all that life has to offer? I don't think so - even less I think so because I know from the start that, as soon as you become unable or unwilling to fulfill all the crap you get asked to do in all this, for whatever reasons, you get thrown away like a used paper towel and your journey ends.
So, what have you "seen from life" then, if all you were doing was believing in the bullshit "the world's open and waits for you" that people told you about and doing extra hours to convince all people of "yes, I AM someone!"?
Your broken bones, your broken soul and life and your financial problems are all yours then. Nobody of the former entities is interested in it anymore.
Fine... For ending up alone and being regarded as "throw away", yes, that for you invested in all that overenthusiasm and did all that shit to be restless through your 20s!
...And all that to happen, if I followed that, was already clear to my mind as my former life wasn't even 18.
It's nothing better than the newest cell-phone, the most expensive jacket, fucking status symbols to "prove" to other people you're no loser in life.
All falls to dust, if they wrong conditions become reality... Which is not far from possibility

[maadmike.livejournal.com]

"The truth is: Every entity in this world wants to make a profit of you. Of your time, your physical power, your belief - everything."

Yes, though I don't see it is a problem - you had come to this world and society and parents were caring about you were spending energy, efforts on you and after you had grown up to have to pay the bill, we are the bees of a kind and have not only to consume but make something worthless of our being. The frustration I am getting goes mostly when you work on somebody you are full time involved but you are not getting much after, all the mistakes of people up are summarising and from up to down you are getting the less is possible. To get up in any structure demands not to be the wisest but the cleverest, the ruthless to push everybody from your way up and it is not the end to get up to some more profitable position you have to spend more energy to stay there than on real work. Making money or doing something real in big companies is always like this for me nowadays and I still believe it is possible using your own brains and energy having your own business and making deserving profit. I will try at near future and I have ideas though of course it is difficult if ever possible to compete with big companies cause they are never playing honest and all the system of laws working to ensure you it is useless and you have to give up and go back to plant working as slave for food... What is about ruthless reality we ate living in, I don't know I am still an optimist and the years behind are my allies, I still posses an enthusiasm to make something new, to believe in future which certainly will not be an easy one but I do believe it will be interesting as a scene to fight, to think, to study.

[matrixmann]

Yes, that's the critical factor that I meant.
For long it is so that it's no give and take, it's only a take from you and you'll get tossed, thrown away, when you're not useful enough anymore.
That's why I don't get the unconcern that people the same age always showed.
I know it will be so and there will be no exception for me (why should it?), so then why should I invest all my powers into this?
This seemed somewhat masochistic from me to do, if I know the final result already years before...

[maadmike.livejournal.com]

"This seemed somewhat masochistic from me to do, if I know the final result already years before..."

Yes, absolutely but clever rich guys are also know their business - if suddenly the people like you and at least at the moment me will outnumber the common workers full to ears in debts, bright plans and so on to work from hand to mouth, the rich ruling fuckers will start something which will give them an opportunity to force you do what they like in prison, or they will start a war o clean up the countries and everything will stars again with new currency, financial pyramid and too bright future for the youngsters with very possible drugs for free...

[matrixmann]

You know...
For my taste, what my former life, during the age where it realized that and was relatively a little open about that, saw happening from the side of adults and youth protection services - it was that exactly.
People brainwashed by those myths "oh, life won't be like this if you really try!", young and old, communicated the message to you how wrong and even morally condemnable it is.
I came to that position also only through the inspiration of another person - that guy killed himself, but with a more media-attention-causing method.
I saw how media distorted his writings, what he left behind of his mindset for others to read. They distorted him to a mentally sick idiot who has just taken the wrong pathway - a real beast to society.
Fact is: Part of him was, part of him was not. Signs of chronic PTSD can definitely be found in his self-written diary entries, but PTSD doesn't make you gaga that you don't know what you're doing and saying anymore.
Still I think this part of his legacy is correct, didn't change any bit through all those years. Actually, things even became worse since then.
So, you can say... My mind knew it wasn't alone with thinking so, it wasn't wrong and an idiot (confirmation implies that it's no idiocy 'cause this is pretty individual), it met some other people through that too which agreed with that - but, I also know which path I was heading for and what it would mean in terms of "relationships with other people" for me. Most people would tell you you're a lazy slacker or an idiot because everyone is mentally occupied by the way this system conservatively works.
...Well, admittedly, in between, without calculation for it, some other thing emerged - you can say "life happened" which put me into the position that I won't ever need to surrender to the hamster wheel anymore as I've got both of my hands full with dealing with myself.

[maadmike.livejournal.com]

I don't know a guy you've mentioned but can say that I am afraid to read mentally ill persons, I'd heard that working with them is bit by bit reconstruct your own mentality, it is why psychologists or doctors change the patients. I am not very touchy but prefer to consume info from inspiring me people. Was reading Buddhism for example in my youth and had consume many interesting ideas which are helping a lot through all my years...

[matrixmann]

I don't mention such people because it's the times we live in.
Also, I don't think I need to lean on a youngster anymore who's been dead for a while already and where nothing ever will change anymore.
With having grown, I can very well stand on my own two feet.

It might be my brain, but - I don't know if it sounds strange, that guy ever was like the only person which ever had a real influence upon my life and soul.
Him saying openly what he said in his legacy, instead of many other people steadily denying those things and lying to themselves - this is something that made my journey begin.
From ashes to a soldier who doesn't want to die - I think that's a positive development.
That wouldn't be kicked loose by any of those artificial unauthentic role model figures which you have tons around in the world.

[maadmike.livejournal.com]

It's interesting that English has one widely used term for drugs and medicines, in Russian we are using the remedy kind of term and drugs which are not counting remedy but presumably counts as substances having the pleasure or hallucination effects. Our government is regulating hard the medicines market and it is really helpful for issues discussed.

[matrixmann]

That's true. English covers both things with the term "drug", although they also have "medication" or shot "meds" to talking about pharmaceuticals.
In German you also have both separate.
Although it's an interesting linguistic coincidence (if it truly is one) to cover both meanings with one term, as one sees, when studying more about it, meds and drugs sometimes aren't that far apart.
Some specific ones are, but some are not.

[onb2017.livejournal.com]

All these is designed just to make people form different social groups fight between one another. Meanwhile the real problem behind discrimination is again mostly traditional poverty because different races were colonized and women are paid less because they bear children and not as desirable workers for making consistent profit. However they are made to think if they hate men their life would become better.

[matrixmann]

I often put the question to myself if the beginnings of all this (meaning: Identity Politics) wasn't just there for this purpose in general, only disguising itself as "wanting to raise consciousness and improve the situation of social minorities".
Looking at what's going on these days, what it does to people, I can't see any different purpose of it than producing quarrel and fights between different groups of people.