Sovereign (Alternative way of life)

[matrixmann]

(Standard 4/4 beat, without snaredrum; 1-sound-baseline)

(1st 2 verses: slow start)
(1st male voice, singing)
Saw some child
holding her mother's hand,
she shone upright,
told me it's so grand
Why I don't join her kind?
My world looks so bland
What have I achieved in my life?
Screwed around so mad

(short music break)

What she doesn't know is
I've never had the plan,
what ones like her miss,
I've never been that man...

(short music break)

Chorus:
I am the one who wants no baby,
don't call me maybe,
it's all frustrating

Don't want no house,
no spouse,
I figured it all out

I've kept my dreams
and my schemes,
don't deliver to the machine,
I've always loved to read
than to breed,
see myself with my own needs

(sung, 1st male voice)
I've been into the
scouting myself
Call that selfish,
at least I use no one else

(short music break)
(possible spot for longer instrumental part of the basic beat)
(short music break if)

(1st male voice, singing)
Met a girl,
she said that I look so sweet,
that unfurled
on me, she loved that I look so neat,
but when she got frank on me,
I left her on the street
What is wrong with me?
She asked why I turned so mean

(short music break)

What she doesn't hear is
that's not what I signed up for me,
what ones like her miss,
that's not where I wanna be...

(short music break)

Chorus

(sung)
What is it with your dreams?
If someone gets off it,
your family will cease,
Is it a product of wit
to see that you're the one who wants to get pleased?
Your harmony is a pit
that gets us both trapped in disease

(short music break)
(longer instrumental part of the basic beat)
(possible spot for instrumentals / synth melody variations)
(normalizing to standard beat)

(Rap)
Along came a lad,
who said
"I know what you mean",
you didn't want her, instead
a man, as what it seems,
clarify his head,
but he won't listen to me,
he said
"modern as we are, who needs a girl for a family?",
I told him that's not what I'm at,
not where I wanna be,
he insists I stop to act,
now there is no reason for me,
I return the fact
"you don't get it, damn, you see?"

(sung, 1st male voice)
What he doesn't feel is,
it doesn't depend on the opposite me
What all people like to miss,
that's not the path meant for me...

(short music break)

Chorus

(short beat break, then going on)
(repeat, 2nd rhyme more powerful)
I've been into the
scouting myself
Call that selfish,
at least I use no one else

(standard beat going on playing, until finishing)

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Musical genre: Hardstyle (Electronic)

cursive text - music / voice instructions
fat text - 2nd male voice

Comments

[onb2017.livejournal.com]

Oh, it is the song you have been working for a while? Pretty cool, I kind of recognize you here.

[matrixmann]

Yep, that's the piece been what I've been holding off for a while now.
Finding a title was my main problem in the end...
I didn't want it to be able to be thrown into the MGTOW (men going their own way) pot because that's not what I'm indicating there, even though it about sounds like that.
My attitude goes far way back than that, surely way before this fight term actually existed. (Why do "movements in thought" often copycat shit that my brain creates years before it becomes somewhat popular in any underground scene...?)
Also, MGTOW are men which came to the decision to say "fuck women and getting children!" at some point in their lives; people which originally maybe would be willing to walk down this path, but they've been deeply disappointed by the people they met.
I've never done this. I've never had to make that decision.
To my mind, it was clear since an early age "this is something I have no will for" - and that never changed. These days, I'm even aware of the fact that I would lack the skills and the health for it anyway.
So... call it a kind of honesty that speaks "I don't want to hurt anybody else further through my wrong acting, I better stay with myself and first try to make something appropriate out of me before I think about handing over anything to somebody else. That's already enough of a task to last for a whole life.".