Fatigue

[matrixmann]

Just by the years of cosiness passing, it turns intelligent people into soap opera watchers...

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[red-child.livejournal.com]

Desperation? Despair? Emptiness?

Mindless media can numb the mind and the soul to the burdens it bears. When I was severely depressed in high school I used to watch drastic proportions of Anime (cartoons with creative plotlines occurring in creative, fictional worlds). It numbed the pain of the emotions I was going through, gave me something to cling to so I didn't have to think about how alone I felt, or how desperately bored I would get. It fills a void in the human psyche. I only imagine that that's where soap operas get their pull. The exaggerated drama and wild emotions of the main characters competes with the emptiness of a life whose story has passed.

And I don't think of you as a typical poster, or a blogger, at all. You're unique, you have a unique take on things. You're more a revolutionary stuck to having a limited voice that no one will hear. Sometimes I get the impression I'm one of less than a dozen people who reads what you write. Sometimes I feel like I'm the only one reading your posts. But you're kind of like an independent news reporter. You try to explain what's happened and what it truly means, and you seem to focus on your agenda of enlightening the world to its ugly flaws without compromising. That kind of job is important, but I don't think it will ever be a job that earns you notoriety or a reputation. It's a very neglected reputation.

I'm sorry to say, I don't think there will ever be that many people reading your journal. But you make a good journalist regardless, if only for the thought behind your (oftentimes brief but sweet) articles.

[matrixmann]

From what I know, "habit" plays a role and "sadness" in the form of depression-like sadness, or depression itself. If you're used to watch stuff on television for years, it's just like a bad habit or even addiction if you try to free somebody from it.
Sadness doesn't need an explanation, you said it yourself - trying to numb something, trying to drown in something, switching off deeper thought because it seems too burdening.
Sickness can also be a factor, be it the disease itself or be it sadness caused by the sickness and you search for something that is easy to take, easy enough to take in your physical state.

As I see it, I may do my part in a larger thing, a part which I can do and which I am suited for. Revolution doesn't come from one person, this is very clear, and in fact only from reading some texts action doesn't take place. I see that when looking at the blogger culture in my mother tongue.
I do my part as I please and as I think things are important. If one person already gained a piece of knowledge from that which you don't hear in typical Western history writing, then it already served a purpose.
The thing with getting wider known also could open up a few juristical difficulties for me, as I'm not willing to take on all the responsibilities that judicature would hold for me in this country (at least if you want to be on the safe side). Not even only that wouldn't be willing to, I'd also think I'm not that much worth of it. Taking a look at the texts I release, I'm more like a fool which likes to put a needle in a wound here and there and that's very much it. Every teenager in dispute with the world does that in a place of his choice when growing up. And when he's in his twenties he stops with it. It's nothing of that great significance that it would need it.