Leaves and good-byes

[matrixmann]

Good-byes never seem to be easy.
Those ones who result from anger and fury seem like the ones who are at least a bit easier, depending on who you leave and why, because you disappear in rage and you won't miss anything.
But, those good-byes which are a result from disappointment in someone or his deeds, seem to be the worst ones because you think about the loss of time you believe to better had it invested into something else. You call yourself a fool for being so blind, for being so naive and for putting so much trust into someone who doesn't seem to have deserved it.

Being deceived might not seem much important, but sometimes it's killing.
It might be killing.
Physically or mentally.

Comments

[schwayn.livejournal.com]

I have learned that there is no one who can deceive you but yourself.
So very often we draw pictures in our minds of the people we like or love, not realizing that the picture contains much more of our own wishes and phantasies than of the actual subject.
And then, when it turns out that the picture is wrong, we are disappointed, because reality shows a part of the person we have not drawn, a part we didn't want to see.
But it's not them, it's us.
And the disappointment is our very own, because WE were blind before and WE are unable to draw a new picture.
That's an important point about love: can you still love someone who turns out to be someone else than you imagined?

Your time is not lost. As long as you did the best you could with what knowledge you had.

[matrixmann]

If it was so, that would be the worst. The foolishness your brain committed, the blindless it took upon itself from free will and the subconscious will to ignore something - it's like carelessness, like being not thorough enough, and you ask yourself "Why?" because it's actually not your kind.

[(Anonymous)]

Well then, would you believe your brain not to ever be foolish, your mind to never be blind?
That would be self-deception of the worst kind.

If things were like you said, you could never be happy because you would always depend on others to be kind to you.
But if you accept that it's YOU and YOU alone who can change your reality, then happiness lies in your own hands (and brains ;-)).
What will you be? Creator of your own fate or victim to everyone?

Of course, I also believe in God to have power over my life, that's why for me prayer is also an option to obtain happiness...but I don't know if you are comfortable with the idea of a greater being ;-P

[matrixmann]

I will do as I always do: Try to keep my eyes open and teach the brain, if it has a bad feeling about something, it should listen to that interpretation.